Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Slaying Dragons

Coming into 2012, I told both Coach Jim and Kurt that I wanted to step up my game. I told them as much for my own sake -- I needed to say it out loud, I needed to hear it. After a year of being conservative with injuries and issues, I am ready and more than eager to fire on all cylinders.

I've started venturing out of the safety of my "little kingdom" of things I know I can do and things that are comfortable. On Saturday I encountered my first "dragon".

I came into a long run not very fresh but expecting to hit some specific race paces in the midsection. Partway through the race pace section, my times fell off just a bit, just enough for the mental floodgates of negativity to open WIDE and for the can'ts and not-good-enoughs to come rushing through. I'm generally a very positive can-do person, so it was pretty startling to realize I had that negativity in there, just waiting to pounce. I regrouped and told myself to ignore the watch, find some flow, and finish happy, as I did. But the experience shook me.

Then as I reflected on what happened, I realized that I asked for this. I asked to step up my game, asked for more. I invited the dragons and have to be prepared to do battle with them. The alternative is to dial things back and settle. That's not me. Bring on the dragons.

Swim Bike Mom shared about the Day I Almost Quit. She slayed her dragons that day too.

What are your dragons?

2 comments:

  1. I actually want to bring up my kid's dragons for a sec. He's also a runner and has the same kind of "I can't" and "I'm not good enough" moments. It breaks my heart, but I need to help him stay encouraged to keep pushing. He's been trying to break into the 18-minute realm in his 5K run. Still in the 19's (for now).

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    1. That's a toughie because it's hard enough to keep perspective as an adult, but as a kid your timeline is just so short. It's easy to think we are not getting results because we are not working hard enough. That's almost never the case for a determined runner like him! Hopefully right now his coach can help him refocus on other distances, drills, technique, intervals, strength training, anything to relieve some of the pressure and buy him some time. As you know, athletic progression is just not linear, but you never know when a breakthrough is right around the corner! Let me know when that day happens, because it surely will!!

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